Surprising myself
A few minutes one lunch break has changed how I feel about confidence and myself
In the midst of all my usual cries of “what am I doing with my life?!”, I’ve had tiny moments - I’m talking a couple of minutes on a lunch break - where I’ve thought I should at least try and go for what I want.
I’ve wanted to start an interview series since March 2018, so one day on my lunchtime walk, I just decided I’m going to email some people I admire to interview. I sat down on the nearest bench, quickly typed out my message and pressed send. Got back up, and went to work. For someone who overthinks everything, there was no overthinking anything.
To my surprise, an author I LOVE replied back and said she’d like to take part! It’s given me such a boost.
Initially when I saw she replied I was so nervous to read it (what if she told me my idea was rubbish?!) so I delayed opening it (classic self sabotage).
It’s made me think is it just a couple of minutes of confidence you need?
I don’t do a lot of the things I want to do because my self-doubt is usually too loud. What came over me to just send a couple of emails?! How can I do this more often to do more stuff?
Apparently, if you keep your promises to yourself and you do what you say you’re going to do, you learn to trust yourself which builds your self-confidence and your self belief.
Therefore, I’m going to make a promise to myself that I will try 100% with this new interview series. Not my usual half-hearted tries that “prove” I’m no good, we’re going all in this time!
Yes, I’m probably going to get a lot of no’s or emails ignored, but to have one person who I admire say yes, shows me that it really is just about trying as you never know what the answer will be.
Here’s to another week of seizing the tiny moments of confidence!